Stephen Spender on Escaping the Hectoring of Youth

I'm struggling at the end to get out of the valley of hectoring youth, journalistic middle age, imposture, moneymaking, public relations, bad writing, mental confusion.

Stephen Spender. 1985. On turning 70, Journals 1939-83 Random House 86, as quoted by R. Z. Sheppard in Time, 20th January 1986)